My Shadow....

In hope of the rising sun.....

The night dances with the breeze....

Shadows dance with darkness hand in hand....

All day, lying under the feet....

How come you are not hurt dear shadow....

Under my foot the whole day.....

Sometimes behind and sometimes ahead....

Yet in darkness, you become me and I become you....



Mingling in each other You my shadow...

And I the darkness I hold in me....

You are not a shadow but me ,that oblique...

Who fights to stay alive like me....



Mirroring my reflection on the floor...

Making the floor know more....

You are not a body,yet....

You are me all the more....



You touch the ends of mine.....

Making a wish to join me back....

But not a moment I weep....

On this impossible opportunity....



In darkness, we are one....

You hide in me, I confide in You...

And what else I may choose....

You remain with me , I remain with You...



You leave me in brightness all alone...

And sometimes tease me, following me from nowhere....

And then you show me the way by walking ahead of me....

And at last join me to sleep....

The Oblivion......

 As I opened my eyes

To the day's clear light.....



I found the nightmare standing

Near the foot of my bed.....



As long as I can recall.....

The hushing songs of the dark....



I recall that hooded being...

Whose face had a scar....



Being dragged back

To the unknown



My eyes shunned away

From the light....



I am helpless in the darkness.....

I am prisoner of its might....



A loud mourn from the corner....

Chills me to the bones.....



The shriek is so deafening....

And I realize I will fall.....



Falling into the oblivion.....

A place existed, I forgot.....



Shaking off that I had forgotten....

I try to pick up the pieces and fill in the gaps....



I try to find my way.....

Out of this haze and fog.....



I cannot see the way ahead.....

The darkness blindfolded my eyes....



How can this oblivion be so silent.....

Not a being is to be seen.....



Unheard voices whisper .....

I keep looking from where they emerge....



Like a shadow melting in the dark.....

The strange nightmare  vanishes at last.....



Still following me in the dark.....

The hooded silhouette stands.....



Behind the tree, hidden......

Like watching over me....



I have lost much time.....

In confusion......



Like I have lost myself.....

In my own Oblivion.....



I submerge in my thoughts....

Again and again....



My eyes  feel terrified....

But with no pain.....



I am helpless.....

Who will help?



Will I know....

What's in the well?



A shadow of mine...

Reflects back as if a stranger....



Will she help me?

Or just run away like a traitor....



I lend my hand to her.....

She grabs and comes out....



Its like me returning....

From the well....



Out of my doubts....

Out of all I thought was deep....



I sunk in my own oblivion....

Now I arise with this new hope....



I have found at last...

It was me who followed....



The unexplored....

The stranger.....



That black hooded....

The nightmare....



The shadow....

The reflection....



I am facing myself now....

All questions answered at last....



I needed to know myself....

I refused long ago to seek....



Now I know why she followed.....

It was me who was a stranger after all...

A hustling wind....

Am just a hustling wind

Whistling all the way.....unseen

Waving away....a little gust near ears...

Making my presence felt

And at some point .....
Dissolving in absolute nothing.

Sometimes a smoke I am....

And sometimes pushing raindrops,

Sometimes with the fog I emerge

And settle down as a drop of dew...

With dawn, I wake up as a breeze....

Cool and full of energy .....

At nights.....I howl my greatest fears

And sleep in the trembling cage.....

Sometimes I rise with the dawn

At noons I collide with the bright

At dusk I melt with the purple and orange syrups

At nights... I hide in the shadows away from the light.....

Singing my unsung songs to who can hear all......

Ik Ghutan si.....

इक घुटन सी,

आँसुओं में  है टपकती।



हर बूँद खुद को जला,

पिघलती  और सुलगती।



आँखों ही आँखों में ,

कुछ वो कहती और रोती।



मगर खुद के ग़म में ,

रहती वो सिसकती और पिघलती।



जली जा रही है ,

रोती , सुबकती।



शाम ढलते ही ,

आवाज़ आए कहीं से।



जला दो ये (मोम )बत्ती ,

 अँधेरा बड़ा है।



जल जल के करती ,

गम ये पार करने।



कि दरिया भी मैं हूँ

किनारा भी मैं हूँ।



और ये बिचारी ,

कश्ती भी मैं हूँ।

Patta Patta.......

तरसते  हैं पत्ते ,

शाखों से गिर के ,

ज़मीं पे हवाएँ ,

ऐसे झुलायें।



कभी इस दिशा में ,

कभी उस दिशा में।

झड़ते  है  ऐसे,

पतझड़ हो  जैसे।



कभी आसमानों से.…

बातें थे करते....

सुरमई सी शामें ,

सुनेहरी दोपहरें। …



झड़ते-ऐ-दामन ,

वो पत्तों की टहनी। ....

वो चादर  हरी सी ,

आज सूखी है ऐसे





ज़मीं पर है पत्ता ...

और नज़रें उन्हीं पे।

वो हँसते हैं ऐसे.…

ना आँसू गमी के।



हम रोते हैं अपनी …

 किस्मत  पे आखिर।

जुदाई है ऐसी,…

हमेशा की सर्दी।



वो तरसता पत्ता ,

शाख़ों से गिरकर।

गिरकर ,बिछड़कर ,

है रोता सिकुड़कर।



हवा उसको रोले …

पाँव उसको कुचले …

मगर फिर  भी गाता …

वो  अपंना तराना।

Everyday is a MOTHER'S DAY.....

   

                  With one never starts a thing but two. Two people make a couple - make parents , make a start. When I was only me, I would not think of others much as much I thought for myself.But after I got married to your father, I realized life is so much happier, when you have someone to share your blessings, your laughter, your achievements, even your pain and grief.



                  With the news of your arrival, I learned to Hope for the best, dream about the new life, I'll have with you,my own flesh and blood.I learned Patience to see you in my arms. And also taking care of myself for you.Your father and  I share so many moments of those nights, when we would think of names, color of your eyes, the way you'll call us by your little words and so much more.





                   And finally, when you arrived, we just felt like after a long hot day,the drops of rain have fallen to quench the thirst of the  dry land.I forgot the pain, yes the pain,which is said to be the greatest in the world. I got you in my arms and I felt the love for you making me forget everything and everyone around.



                   Your eyes, your sweet smiles, cries, your holding my hand, keeping close to me made me learn the importance of being there for you. You taught me dear to be there when you needed me. When you tried to sit and finally made it, taught me your desire to achieve. When you crawled on your knees, made me know you wanted to excel even though you were small to understand. When you walked finally, your achievement, I sensed the victory in your eyes, on your face.



                    Dear, at nights, when you slept, I watched over you, feeling pleased that you are safe, you are well. Today, I understand, why my mom used to say that children are the world.My small world started with you and I am really happy to have you in my life.



                    The day, I knew you were coming, I felt like God, a universe was in the making, inside me. Every day and every month, you grew inside me, making me realize, how God is said to be around us and inside us. You made me a goddess dear, I felt like one, the power of a god to create life, I understood the process of creation, amazing is the work of God, so continues and so magical. Such a magical feeling it is, to be a mother.



                     When you were born, a part of me was born in You. Who says we live only once???But the fact is I live in You too.After I am no more, I will live as You. Yes dear, this is how life moves forward.I have given you what I had and You have taught me most of the things in life.And though only a day is celebrated as Mother's Day, I say for mothers, everyday is a MOTHER'S DAY.





                   

On my mind......

I thought of YOU.....

When there were clouds in the sky.

I thought of YOU....

When the rains fell by.



I thought of YOU....

When the raindrops danced.

I thought of YOU....

Standing under the stars.



Smiling to myself without any reason...

Hoping YOU were here with me....





The sudden gust of warm air.....

Tingles and touches my ear.

And I turn around.....

To find YOU near.



How did YOU know???

YOU were on my mind?

Did you mind?Ever!!!

My thinking of YOU???