The Broken Heart...

My heart broke,

On the day when it snowed.

I froze standing there,

Only to watch her go.



My heart cried,

My eyes wept.

It was something

I never hoped.



I walked lazily,

But my heart was panting,

Getting restless all the time.



Why did she go?

Why did she say no?

Faking Love,

Giving me hope?



If she didn't love me,

Then why did she play with my heart?

She went away

Shattering me just like a glass....



I couldn't understand,

Why was it me?

Me to face The Broken Me?

And alone Me

In my lonely arms?



I went home that night,

Seeing my plight,

My grandmaa asked

What happened son?

Do you want to tell

Or I myself figure it out?



She looked at my eyes

And wiped my tears.

Then with a hug, she said,

"Let's go inside....

Not inside the room  but,

Inside your heart, inside your mind.



I told her my love story,

After all I had said,

I began to cry.....



She held me close

And began in a low tone.

Do you think she never loved you???

Or do you think she did it for a purpose???



Just think again,

You are a man now,

You live in a world,

A world that man thinks is man's alone.



Alone to decide,

The fate of womenfolk.

Alone to decide,

What to wear and where to go.

Alone to decide how  much to earn

And so much more.



Do you think,

She decided your fate

On her own???

Think again O' innocent child,

She did it because of something more.



A girl is never alone

She is the pride of her family,

She is the reflection of her mother,

She is the hope of a generation,

She is the lame excuse,

That Society uses to tame her.



You say why did she

fell in love with you after all!!!

Then listen to me,

For it is all....



Love is a ditch,

Nobody falls in knowingly.



Sometimes they think

They'll escape in time.



But the ditch gets

Deeper and deeper with time.



You would not know

And you'll be in love.



You'll  feel so happy,

You'll feel so well.



But like a drug,

It'll hold your senses.



You'll not know,

When you've crossed your fences.



Yes! You didn't take permission to love,

The question is "Now What??"



I know the answer you seek child,

But it would be harsh, it won't be mild.



I have seen love all my life,

In grooms and in brides,

In boys and girls alike.



The innocent love of early youth,

The love they choose to be true.



Yawning love, waking through eyes,

Making lovers forget their pride..



And also that Destiny,

Is never under their control.



Till you try, you lose the battle,

When you realize, You are in shackles.



Questions stand immovable like mountains,

Answers you seek but won't find them.



The answer truely resides in you, my child,

Just take a deep breath and look inside.



Love is only given, Never asked for,

The beauty of it lies in its selfless nature.



Those who love never suffer,

For their heart only gives, expects never.



For expecting is selfishness,

Yes we are humans, we expect in return...



Give a chance to someone of heart,

For you know the plight of a broken heart.



Those who broke down,

Never break someone else's.

For they know heart's true mettle.



Time only can heal the wounds so deep,

The seeds you sow,  only you shall reap.



You planted love, you cannot be broken,

You shall receive, you shall be taken.



Just wait, For the time shall tell,

What is heaven and what is hell.



You need not worry, You need not weep,

I tell you this, you'll get what you seek...



 

He waited for me till the end...

I met Him first I don't know when,

But I knew him well, he knew me well...





Every day, he walked by my side,

In my hardships and in my cry....

When in pain, he was there,

And in rain, he was there....





He said I belonged to him....

He just came to take me......

Every time I refused to go with him,

But never he asked me why.....





Then one day when I was asleep,

I felt his whisper nearing me....

His gentle touch made me shiver,

His lips were singing my name....



I woke up to find him holding my hand,

He was singing, indeed my name aloud...

He took me to dancing and smiling and singing

Again and again all the time.



Then at last he kissed my hand

And said,"You are mine...

Come lets go, come lets rejoice

For I have come to take you along...."



His look hypnotised me,

His smile mesmerised me.

Just don't know what happened

I got up to go with him....



I felt his grip so hard and

Love so compelling to part,

I accepted to go with him

When something happened 

There were hues there were cries,

I wondered why...





I turned to see and to find.

I understood then

That Death was the one

Who kissed me that night





But now it was time and no chance was mine,

To wave him back goodbye....

He kissed me on head and again said

Its time to go Oh my beloved...





I walked a distance with him without choice,

But there was a hand that held me tight...

I turned back to see where I was being wept,

My son was holding on and saying Don't Go





My eyes were wet,

Death looked at me

And I confessed.

He didn't ask me and just left....





I came back to senses only to mention

I was asleep in my bed......





Then one day again he paid me a visit,

He said it was hard to resist

Seeing me every now and then.

He told me he wasn't angry ,

But when will I accompany

Him to his far away land?





I answered him

When my son'll be old enough

To face the hardships of life without anyone

He laughed and giggled and smiled

At my innocent replies.

He kissed me again this time

But his eyes showed his tears alike

He had his back towards me

And said he'll come when the time is ripe...





For many years I didn't see him,

I was busy with earthly regime.

And then one day I saw him again 

Wearing that lovely mesmerising smile.





I was standing, he came up to me

Taking my hands, he asked me how was I???

I smiled back at him and said I waited for him

From so many days and nights.





He took my hand and looked at my eyes

And said ,"Just come with me, my bride."





I walked with him,

To his home

With  a large large door.

What happened next I know nomore ....

Waqt ke tehkhaane mein....

वक़्त के तहखाने में ,

सन्दूक यादों के रखती हूँ।

कुछ में खुशियाँ , कुछ में गम ,

कुछ में सपने  रखती हूँ।



जब चाहूँ तो खोल इन्हें,

इक टुकड़ा मैं उठाती हूँ।

उस पे लिखा नाम तेरा

भीगी आँखों से पढ़ती हूँ।

फिर मुस्काके वो टुकड़ा

मैं वापस उसमें रखती हूँ।



खामोश निगाहों के दामन से ,

सपनों को मैं ढकती हूँ।

जाने कब गुम  जायें ये

इन्हें खोने से मैं डरती हूँ।



 इक टुकड़ा हँसी का,

आज भी खिलखिलाता है।

 जब खोलूँ वो पाती,

तो याद तुम्हारी दिलाता है।



लफ़्ज़ों में भी जैसे तुम्हारी

आवाज़ सुनाई देती हो।

कभी कभी तो ऐसा लगे 

तुम यहीं कहीं मेरे पास हो।

हर लम्हा मैं तनहा ,

फिर भी जैसे तुम साथ हो।



इक टुकड़ा आंसुओं में,

हरदम भीगा रहता है।

सीधे सादे आधे वादे ,

 चुभते मन के कोने में।

नींदें छोड़ जो सपने देखे,

खुली हुई उन आँखों से।

आज भी मैं उन सपनों को 

लगी हुई सुलझाने में।





फिर हँसकर उन यादों को ,

दफ़न कर मैं आती हूँ।

वक़्त के तहखाने में,

संदूक यादों के रखती हूँ।

 

My Lost Diary

Found my lost diary,

Today in a treasure hunt.

Like a ray of dawn,

It emerged like a song.





Like an orphan it lay,

Helpless in the corner, 

Waiting with expecting eyes,

For someone to hold over.





The cover had a sad face,

Which shined on seeing me.

I held it up to my heart,

Like I found a Friend at last.



Like in a chilly weather,

I felt a warming hug.

I took it in my hands,

And recalled my silent charms.







A child in me,

So happy to be.

With that diary,

Like a humming bee.





I opened it with care,

Touched it gently, being aware.

It was years back, I lost,

But vowed to find it at any cost.





My memories remained ...

In the words I crafted....

Those little words

With silly secret meanings.



My day long journeys

My dreams of nights

My emotions, my devotions

My crushes, my infatuations

My confusions, my confessions,

My assumptions, my confirmations,

My tales, my nightmares

My admirations, my stupid exaggerations,

And everything .....

From something to nothing

And then, from nothing to something...





Pages of my childhood dreams,

Calling my eyes to cherish.

Again and again to laugh,

At those innocent spelling mistakes.



Just a graph to show How I went through,

And where I had come.

How it started one day

And so many moments after that,

Locked in those words on those pages....

I Am Like A Storm...

Don't call me A crowd of thoughts,

For I am like a Storm.....





A Woman I am, of love and care,

Till you provoke my devil form.



I am a STORM......



A Storm that awakens

The Fear you hide.



A Storm that burns

The Passion inside.



A Storm that stirs,

The Emotions of Life.



The Storm that ignites

The Fire to Fight.



A Storm that swells

The Bursting Revenge



A Storm that destroys

The Peace of the Quiet.



A Storm that weakens

Your Inner Strength



A Storm that precedes any Hope.

Hope that follows after I go....





A Storm that challenges

Your mighty height.



A Storm that chills

Your ego inside.



A Storm that suppresses

The flight of hunger.



A Storm that defeats

By the power of Thunder.



 A Storm that outshines

Craze and Wonder.



A Storm that Conspires

With Darkness to Surrender.



A Storm that plays

With thoughts of minds



A Storm that holds

The Secrets of Times



A Storm that heals

The Burning sores



A Storm that deals

With worries and woes



A Storm that's not

What you'll like.



A Storm that's hard

To stop Downright.



A Storm that'll make

Your eyes go wide.



A Storm that's Me

And all Mine.



A Storm that's Me

And arouse only I...







 

What a Lovely Day

What a lovely day,

Squirrels climbing,

Sun smiling,

Birds singing,

Winds rustling,

Leaves falling,

Flowers blooming,

Butterflies fluttering,

Kids laughing,

Me smiling....

What a lovely day.....





Fresh new air,

Sky so clear,

Warm sunlight,

Feeling Alive,

Just in time,

Recovering after,

The Sleepy night,

Lazy eyes, opening wide,

Just to hug,

The dawny light...





The holy messenger,

Sun to remember..

When Autumn's around,

A chill to be found.

With dry leaves falling

Giving way to the new ones rolling,

Filling spaces with Hopes...

Hopes of a New Beginning.

That's what Life is.....

A new Hope,

A new Morning,

A New Challenge to face

And win a new Everest...

Some Books .........

Some books lying on my table,

Opened up to hug my eyes.

But I moved away and ignored,

Their crying words for a while....



They were calling hard,

I kept quiet.....

acting not to hear them weep.

They chose to sing,

They chose to recite,

The lovely themes that could ever be.



Then there was a giggle,

I turned to read the riddle.





The sudden gush of wind made them

Flutter like the butterflies.

And some of them even tried

To fly away in the night.





I got back to them,

Holding them close to my side.

Some gripped me hard,

Some chose to jump aside.





On the floor, some lay

With open arms like a child.

I could see tears in those eyes,

Waving hands from side to side.





I hugged them tight,

To make them feel light.

It was a delight ,

To have them in my sight





Mornings with them,

And ending nights.

Some played with my mind,

Some played with my eyes.





Some turned away

Looking at other side.

Like feeling offended,

On my ignoring them for a while





I picked them up with an apology in my eyes,

With smiles of words they forgave me.

And accepted me and my mind.





For their words reflect in my eyes,

Through eyes they reach my mind,

And from there, to my conscience.