Full of Emptiness....

I carry within  me  ....

A little of this emptiness...



And try to fill it up.....

With your emptiness.....



I thought its fine.....

But I never did mind....



To hold your gaze.....

In my eyes.....



Which reflected your like....

 For my hidden emptiness....



And so did I love

You and your presence.....



But with time....

You withdrew your hand.....



As your vacant emptiness...

Was not like mine.....



And I remained the same.....

In those corners....



Fighting to fill.....

The coffin of my emptiness.....



This emptiness....

Is what is so real.....



Nobody is so full.....

Like this emptiness...



The vacant spaces between.....

Is where resides this emptiness....



And in the corners of the eyes......

Is where my heart lies to myself.....



Lies like truth.....

True till the surfaces.....



Where depth has no measure.....

But only and only emptiness......



How shall I reach out......

From the depth of this emptiness ?



Will you come and grab my hand.....

And fill up my emptiness?



In this emptiness......

I find you smiling.....



May be this emptiness....

Is what always finds me....



But now this emptiness.....

Is what I hate the most....



Because when I had you ,

You emptied my emptiness....



Now you haunt my emptiness....

And whisper in silence......



 Everything is empty....

 Me and my heart.....



And now my emptiness is more empty  ....

Than the emptiness I had once within.....

Can I hold your Heart?

Can I hold your heart for a while.......

Till you feel it is alright........

Can I give you both my eyes......

For you to look deep inside......



It's no world to say......

How to live.......

And how to love........

It's no world to say......

How to choose

And how to let go of the past.....





Can I kiss you on your hand.......

To ease the pain you hold inside.......

Can I hold you a little tight.....

Till you leave away the coldness out right.....



It's no world to say....

How to make...

How to destroy......

It's no world to say.....

How to be .....

Yourself in life....





Come on let me hold your heart.....

Till it loses all its scars...

Come on let me hold it so light.....

To feel that softness inside.....



Take my shoulder to cry.....

Come lets make these tears dry.....

Where is that smile......

Oh! Where did you hide it......

Where is that love......

Oh! Please tell me where is it?





Come forget what hurt you then.....

Come hold this very moment.....

Come embrace your life once again......

Come now there's new life to begin.....







Now smile my friend....

Its the end.....

Now can we talk?

May this day begin....

All again....

With you on my side......



Lets play a game dear.....

Come on, do not fear.....

I have your heart in my hand.....

Just let me understand.....



Take my word for it.....

Just forget.....

Make me your smile.......

Give those tears to me.....

And worries.....

And let go of that pain inside....





Will you give me chance.....

To hold it and place in my life....

I will give you mine, not for a while....

But till the end of the times...

.



I would love to be yours...

Making your dreams and

 hopes come true

Come lets be not two

But one soul ,me in you....



Its one life to be lived....

With you and me for a while....

When time will end....

I will be yours and you mine...



I love you and I can't hide....

It's the tears in your eyes...

That I don't want to find.....

I just love to see...

That pretty smile...



Come on  give me a chance .....

I will prove my worth.......

Can I hold your hand for a while....

And have it in my hand...



Will I get your hand , my dear.....

Or you have some other fear?

Just know this, I am waiting for you ......

And I shall keep waiting for you for lifetime.....

Now its time for you to decide....

Now its time for you to be mine......

Now its time for you to make it happen...

Come on say YES and join me as my life...

To my friend Pamela......

Some called me woman of words.....

Some called me wandering in thoughts.....

Some called me a story teller.....

Some called me a mystery unsolved.......



In the voices of hundreds......

No one saw the silence I hold.....

The strings of that violin......

only reveal the words untold....



You saw my friend......

The silent melody I hold.....

Keeping it protected......

Like a precious stone.....



You gave me a name......

Beautiful silence.....

And I began to echo ...

The words with silence



Through winds I visit you.....

I see you.....

I wave a kiss when you sleep....

So you have a sweet dream....



--To my dear friend Pamela Martin Ongkiko.......

Release me......

Release me of your love......

And set me free ....



For I can no longer....

Bear that prisoner in me....



For long I have waited....

For you to set me free.....



For eyes have only wanted.....

Your face in front of me.......



Give me back what You took....

I can no longer lead a life that's empty.....



The heart you stole .....

The peace you shattered.....



Its unbearable sometimes....

When in this lonely time.....



I hear your whispers.....

Eventhough you are no where in distance......



Promising me togetherness....

For a lifetime.....



I am imprisoned ......

In the promise you made......



Now you flew away......

 Like a bird on its way.......



And am still on ground.......

You are nowhere to be found.......



Death is no longer.....

A fear it used to be.......



Now I wanna live.....

Wanna live for my zeals......



Yes I have become selfish.....

But tell me what I must do then, please!!!

Silent Dusk.......

Silent
is the dusk......

When darkness sets its arms to touch.......



The orange
shadows of its pleasure ......

 Left in the east to set in the
west.........



And still beholding the loneliness..... 

Which stops at bay
in a silent melody.......



In this silence...... 

When night falls in love with the dusk.....



Reaching to hug it near the shores......

And whispers in it's ears ......



The moment they meet......

Is only this.......



For dusk reunites with the dark......

And celebrate happily the day's end.....



Dusk meets itself 

mirroring the darkness within...



Holding in arms the night like a bride......

kissing it after day's bright light.....



Night dances until it is weak.....

And on its knees, it comes with ease.....



Leaving the dusk on one end.....

It says goodbye for another hunt......



Dusk remains in the bed......

Till evening chants its name again.....



And when it wakes only to hold.....

The night and say goodbye at last.....

In the Loneliness......

In the Loneliness of the quiet......

I remain enclosed sometimes.......



Hardly noticing the speed of time......

Just freezing to live on my life........



Coughing over the coldness of the world.....

I remember some words untold.......



Sometimes crippled, sometimes rippled.....

And sometimes laziness colliding inside.....



From the windows, I watch.....

The waters falling down in drops.....



Drop by drop each one falls...

And collect on the ground......



This is how day by day.......

Life gathers moments and stays......



Stays in the backyard.....

Backyard of memories.....



Where sometimes I wander restlessly.....

Alone.........



Alone to gather the moments......

That I have lost......



Just like sand.....

They slip out of my hands.....



And I sit in that lonely desert.....

For this mirage to be over......



I see some happiness.....

Far away but beyond reach.....



But I continue to fall.....

And emerge again on my knees.....



Holding on to walk again......

And make my way out of this graveyard......

Review: LOVE @ AIRFORCE by GAURAV SHARMA

An amazing book from an amazing writer ..... That's what a reader wants. Something that touches the depth of the heart. A story in itself- life we all live. If you think life has been unfaithful to you then, through this book you'll know what's the difference in living our lives and just breathing. Its a fiction yet so close to life. Reality through the words of an Airman.







                   The excerpts have been very attractive and so also is the cover with the flying Sukhoi. A Blackbuck Publication paperback novel authored by Gaurav Sharma who himself has been associated with Mathematics from quite a long time now. Impresses with his approach through minute inspection of human sketches and behaviours. Its a tempting book and you cannot keep it away till you read the whole of it.The freshness of the story keeps the readers glued to it.The author has a good command over the flow of the story from the beginning.

               



                  The status difference between commissioned and non-commissioned officers is well potrayed.Reunion of friends after twenty years is the showstopper of this book but the real event of the book is the lost love story that gets revived. Shabd and Soumya meeting after 2o years and their hidden lovestory. Will Shabd's return make any difference to Soumya? Will her husband do anything when he comes to know about their past affair?So many questions And Ashish's throat in between. How will he save himself from the mess that Shabd makes?Will the drama end tragically or magically? What's in  store for Shabd in future

? And will peace prevail in Soumya's married life?Wanna know??? Do read this book "Love@AirForce" by Gaurav Sharma.