Life is a withering winter

 When people ask me... do I still remember you?

I go in a trance, my lips hold a smile and my eyes are visible with tears about to fall. I remember the first time when I saw you and.... also the last when you were leaving... like a trail of words gradually being swallowed by the winds of winter. There is a noise inside my heart but am in solitude. 

Am not a lonely passenger anymore... I am a seeker.... seeking myself. Not you!

I forgave myself for you. And also you... so that I can save the little of myself that is left inside of me.

When people ask me would I go back to you?

My lips tremble as if in ananticipation of the new conflict that will begin between my heart and mind. My teeth are excellent to keep words inside. At many places these words have fought hard to escape and thus, some teeth are giving in space from where they scream.

The lump in my throat is a knot that I had tied after I witnessed the rising and falling of grief inside me.

 Dams are excellent to hold rivers in their place. But I hold this grief so that I do not drown again in you. 

Your visions, your dreams are like migrating birds and I .... I am a wildflower rooted to the soil. My fragrance could travel with the winds as memories, but I cannot become like you.

My sunshine and my roots are all I have. I can smile and still not give you my teardrops. 

I hold out my hand to you to just say... now my eyes are closed and I don't see what I saw before. I saw you as me . Now You are different... you are You. And that does not affect me anymore. 

You are free..and so am I. 

Now when people ask me do I remember you. I say I remember everyone who has left me and also someone who has not...and that is me.

Ravinder Kaur

29-12-2022

#thelastlaugh

#whendeathisyouknowisreal

#reality of life

#thelastdecember

#lifeisawitheringwinter

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Swollen vulnerabilities

 

I saw that you were trying...

Trying to gather your falling words.

You were picking them up hastily but your mouth ran away with whatever reached first.

Out of time and place.

You were so in rush that you didnt see, where your tear drops fell, whether on your cheeks or on me.

Your words all ran out of breath, you seemed so sad... disappointed in everything and everyone.

Like this world owed you something you couldn't really put your finger on.

I know... you needed me.

You needed my shoulder. But like a coward I left.

I left you with everything to face... alone.

And in your loneliness, you looked after your broken pieces as if they were the crying infants. You nursed them, you smiled at them, hugging them closer and closer and closer to your heart that when I returned, you didnt want to share.... your swollen vulnerabilities with me. 

© Ravinder Kaur

14-10-2022

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8 Actions That Help Improve Your Google Keyword Rankings

Do you know how Google search engine can and does affect your website’s ranking on the internet? If not, then this post is just for you.

With the world wide web growing tremendously during the last decade, most of our work now gets done through the internet, any business, whether it is merchandise, groceries, luxury items, furniture, automobiles, electric appliances or even selling and buying used items, you name it and the internet shows you means to reach it hassle free.

But have you noticed that some websites land top on google search, while there are many others you have not even come across? This is because of the fact that if a website is not visible to google, then it will not appear in top results in the search engine too. To be found by your next customer/reader/visitor, google needs to find you first. If you are a website owner, then these 8 actions can help you boost your ranking on google.

Keywords   

Most websites display content which are based on a relevant topic. When a user adds relevant keywords such as phrases and words. These so-called keywords are picked up by google and thus when a visitor/internet user types these keywords in the search bar, google automatically displays URLs of websites which match with those keywords. So, a maximum of 6 keywords in your web content that too throughout the website can really boost the chance of your website to rank better than those which do not use keywords in their content. You can also add these words or phrases to meta tags and meta description to add visibility on google ranking.

Website Navigation

Your website should have a smooth navigation enabling google crawlers to go through your website. If google cannot go through your website without ease, then it would automatically conclude the same for a human reader. Any broken link can affect the performance of your website resulting in its low ranking. You can use Search Console, a free toolset from google to help you fix problems regarding crawling, indexing and re indexing if you have updated content on your website.  

 

Original Content and Backlinks

Original and unique content can do wonders for a website, but it is still of no use if google cannot find it. Most people click on top ranking URLs on google, cutting down the chances of other websites that could be found if ranked higher than they currently are. Also, the backlinks are really important as they bring visitors to your websites. So, always use links on your social networking sites such as Facebook, LinkedIn, Instagram, twitter, etc. to get backlinks.

Well optimised images

Applying images to your website helps in breaking monotony of words. Rather then all text, images cut off boredom in that page, making visually interesting component. An image on any page should be optimised, thus reducing the file size helping your page load faster. A slow loading page can affect your ranking as your audience can leave without reading your content. Also, the image should match with the text written in that paragraph, making google understand your image and content relationship.

Longer Content

Do you know that longer the content on your website, the more chance it will perform better? Compared to articles which are short, your page should have content not less than 1000 words, focusing mainly on keywords, thus increasing its rank on google.

Sitemap 

If you have a website with multiple pages, very often pages go unnoticed, even by google. Sitemap is like a directory of your website, which helps speeding up of traffic and also indexing of all pages. HTML and XML are two types of sitemaps, one usually uses. Also make sure to get your sitemap listed in your Google Webmasters account.

Internal Links

Other than backlinks, internal links also play an important role in ranking your website on google. A specific keyword or a phrase on one of the pages can be used o to create a link for another page. This redirects the reader to another page of the website, giving additional page view to other pages of the website which have relevant topic as in the previous page.

 

Trending Topics

 Another thing that is really important is, what your customers/readers are reading? What is the latest trend? Whether it is fashion or newly released gadgets or a movie, if your content cannot put it across efficiently then it won’t help your website rank any better. Webpages are required to be up to date but the most important thing is the trending topics which top google search. If your content is about the trending topics, then your keywords would get noticed by google and get your website rank better on google.

Above all, any website is designed with a target audience in mind. Whether it is a blog, travelogue, product review, questionnaire or a simple children website, each website has a specific audience. And relevant keywords are the main focus that can rank your website higher on google. Unlike social networking sites, where hashtags fetch results more efficiently, keywords have more impact on google. And to optimise your content (words and images) will surely increase your chance to find your website doing better than any other website on the internet. If the first page on google doesn’t fetch your keywords and show your website in search, then it surely will rank poor on the internet. So these 8 points would surely help you in optimising your website, ranking it better on Google.

एक अक्षर ...

 

सुनो...

किसी दिन,  किसी मोड़ पे शायद तुम्हारा मेरा सामना हो ही गया तो क्या करोगे ? क्या मुझे पहचान पाओगे? या फिर अपनी धुन में चलते  रहोगे। 

कुछ बातों के हज़ार मतलब होते हैं और कुछ  बातों का कोई मतलब नहीं होता। शायद हम इन मतलबों में ही उलझ के जीते रहेंगे। और फिर एक दिन एक दूसरे को  कोसेंगे कि मेरी बात का क्या मतलब निकालते रहे। 

खैर, तुम्हे ये  एहसास ही नहीं कि कितनी दुआएं  मांगी हैं मैंने तुम्हारे इक दीदार के  लिए। 

हिज्र की शब कई जन्मों तक बनी रहे, शायद यही तक़दीर हो. शायद मेरे हाथों में तुम्हारे नाम की लकीर तो हो पर टूटी फूटी।  इसलिए रोज़ हाथदेखती  हूँ... तुम्हारे नाम के अक्षरों को उनमें ढूंढ़ती हूँ।  मगर आज तक एक भी अक्षर नहीं  मिला।  

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Tum hi aana

Tumhare bina ye baadal bhi saabun ki jhaag ki tarha lagte hain... aasmaan ka neelapan bhi na jane kahaan kho gya hai... 

🎶

Meri neendon ko chhu kar tum jo sapne yu sajaate ho

In aankhon ke kinaaron se ye aansu kyo hataate ho.

Wafaa se puchh lo jakar bina waade tujhe chaaha.

Bahot aayi gyi yaadein magar is baar tumhi aana.🎶

Ye sunte sunte baadlon ko keh rahi hoon ki itna sannaata aaj kyo hai... tumhari hasi kyo nhi goonj rahi, kyo aankhon ko tumhare chehre ka intezaar hai... tumhari awaaz ka intezaar hai.tumhara intezaar hai...

🎶

Tere jane ka gam, aur na aane ka gam,

Phir zamaane ka gam kya karein?

Raah dekhe nazar, raat bhar jaag kar

Par teri toh khabar na mile.🎶

Ab barish ka mausam bhi nhi par dekho bewaqt ki barish bhi tumhari yaadon jaisi hi hain... itni umas hai is tadap ki... ki aankhon ka barasna bhi jaise zaruri ho gya hai. Judaa log hote hain... dil toh kabhi judaa nhi hote.

🎶

Bahot aayi gyi yaadein, 

magar is baar tumhi aana.

Iraade phir se jaane ke nhi laana... 

tumhi aana!🎶

Suno... ye faasle kya mohabbat ka farmaan sunaate hain? Kya tumne bhi mujhe yaad kiya? Kya tumhe 

Ya phir ye sab bas waqt bitaane ke tumhare tariqe hain...apne akelepan se kya itna darte ho ki tumhe bas saath chahiye? Mera...Kisi ka bhi?

🎶

Meri dehleez se hokar bahaarein jab guzarti hain...

Yahaan kya dhoop kya saawan, 

hawaayein bhi barasti hain.

Humein puchho kya hota hai bina tere jiye jana...

Bahot aayi gyi yaadein, magar is baar tumhi aana.

🎶

Haan... is baar tumhi aana. Koi makhauta na lagaana... na koi jhooth kehna.... jaise ho waise hi... 

Tumhi aana!

© Ravinder Kaur

   

04-06-2020

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Lyrics : marjaavaan

#tumhiaana

#tumbin

On the brink of being vulnerable...

How slow we made it...to this.

Slowly hearing out our hearts, our sore wounds that would always ache like hell. We comforted each other only to leave back our skins that no longer served us. 

Do you really think we have to be this vulnerable? I get scared at the mention of it. May be I dont know how to or may be my walls are so thick that I cannot break them. 

Each day I have cemented one more layer over them. Now it seems more like a grave enclosing me in, than my fortress.

Do you think this is needed? The last wall to be thrashed to feel what vulnerability is? 

I get scared that my armour would be destroyed, hurting me more... exposing me to something I might not be able to protect myself from.

But some days.... I want to break down...show the real me to you and tell you yes it hurts to miss you... to love you because I can live, knowing that it's safe to love you from a distance than to find myself crumbling under your stare....than to say that it's all a lie... this love is fake. 

Somedays I want to bear the weight of your arms wrapping around me, feeling me safer than ever inside your embrace. Is being invulnerable too bad?

Can't you see am so scared to be in love and be loved. 

Because the fear of losing you haunts me day and night behind these walls. 

And all I can do is be on the other side of this poker face and behave like it doesn't matter... you do not matter.... LOVE DOESN'T MATTER!!!

© Ravinder Kaur

13-05-2020

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Fallen traps

Twenty two months...since I know her... a woman who became more than a friend to me. We met through a social site...where she posted some of her pics. The more I scrolled her profile...the more I got interested in her. At first...it was just out of curiosity... a new prey she was to me...and I wanted to trap her without any failure.This is the advantage of social sites...the victim never knows ...which information has led to her fall... there are clever ways to know how to go into that... likes ... books ... movies ... groups ... places visited ...things liked which fall in a particular emotion...like sad songs, etc.

I had mastered this art since the beginning days of Facebook. And if you take my advice...stalking someone quietly is more advantageous than blowing the trumpet by liking their posts or commenting continuously. But sometimes the predator becomes the prey itself.

But my case is different. It all started with a friend request....loz... sounds the title of Ravinder Singh' s novel. Yes it started that way but ended totally differently. My request for ignored several times...my pleading went unheard most of the times and the reason was well... unknown. I tried hard to get into the dense fencing around this lady but to my utter surprise...she never spoke in the inbox.I tried catching her attention in the comments then....but she would remain diplomatic. 

But then like a blessing one day... she answered my message with a bang... "THANK YOU". And left the conversation when I tried to initiate it with a "hello". So much for it.I was totally bowled out.How could she do that to me....me who always wins over girls...but wait...she's not a girl...but a woman...and as you know .... a woman is very hard to please. And this is what I like the most....challenges...I love to win...a challenge...and am The One....not to be messed with!

First step cleared....she answered...right?

Now to go a little slow...cleverly I put my trap. Sometimes sweet honey words dont do the trick that much but some harsh realities pinch and make the sore wounds bleed and that's when the prey actually surrenders and this trick is a Man's game. Simple flirts can't handle this...it is like a burning charcoal on the palm and you have to cross the river carrying it...without letting it fall in the water or on you. 

And you know what.... it makes your prey so vulnerable that they would give in so easily and quickly that you would make them go down their knees and confess how much comforting it is to be with someone like you.

I started with simple" hi's and you look gorgeous in your  pics " with girls. But this lady wasn't that easy to please. She was a no nonsense taker. What I gauged from her profile and comments was that she had built a very thick wall around her and wanted no one as a company. Diplomatic birthday wishes and hard life posts was what I found on her timeline. But I knew one thing...behind closed doors...there are always secrets...for graves are not for the alive but for the dead to be forgotten and kept out.

The only way to reach her was to addict her with words that would soothe her....because I felt she was hurt....and that too very badly...

But ... all the while when I was thinking about her, my killer boy instinct was fading away too....I was realising my thinking pattern was changing....I was thinking good about her...my motive of disturbing her peace of mind changed to becoming her friend...her well wisher...her companion...for she didnt need honey words...she needed a listener....a calmer to her nerves...the storm that she carried inside but wasn't able to control or may be she needed someone to make it explode and let the world know its ferocity.

My intention at first was to make her fall for me...but as time passed...I realised it was me who was falling for her. And guess what... now I dont know how to end the fire that I had began. It's as if I have to abandon her half -burnt.  But now it has taken over me and I cannot extinguish it. 

Sometimes, the lies that you speak become your reality... the thin line between the vague and real fades so slowly that you never know when you cannot escape your own heart.

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